I reflect emotion while taking time to be a great person.

Some say he is the end of all things to come. I just wanna feel the love.
Some said he wasn't shit he never gave a shit about what others think.
Treat everyone with respect and only diss them if they are slobs or low lives.
Treat people like you want to be treated and you will be rewarded for everything.
I never cared much for what other thought, I reflect all my emotions.
I reflect emotions deeper then anything you could dream of.
My soul became the bottomless pit of everything.
My suffering and pain have become and will always be the stronger because after you lose a father things changed. Things fucked me up. My emotions from that day still linger after all this time. I mean doesn't anyone know why I give them the finger in photos?
I don't give a fuck about looking cool or being hot.
Simple reasons can explain why others wanna be.
Remember the simple reasons no need to explain every little detail.
Leave something to the imagination your thoughts should be peaceful.
My name is George I feel as thought no one is equal.
this is who I am, I am a writer a dreamer and a believer.
I have and will continue to grow mentaly grow in my physical form.
I'm working hard to keep life blanced steady and chill.
Who cares how I feel sometimes it's just me.
My x was weaker then any woman I have ever had.
I slowly became depressed not knowing why I would do next.
I have to admit I didn't wanna be with her and should have walked away long before 2010 Jan 29th so I'm as much to blame as she was. What a load of bullshit she was.
I never wanna meet another girl like that. I told her everything about me I had no secrets.
She had no respect for family and she could never take a joke.
I couldn't stand some shit she did like rip her toenails off it was stupid. Never have I met a more pathetic person I was being drained of my life force. Ok fuck it I'm done with her my life has been awesome.
I met a sweet woman online for as far as I can tell she's fine. No problems. No redflags as I put it. She's really has me amazed at how she is. I just wish I could be with her now but she's in GA I'm in IL but it's not the distence that gets to me it's the being on the phone and wanting to take her out but I can't it sucks but it's ok and I deal.
I deal with the 800 something miles that seperates us. I really hate the south as you already know from one of m first blogs.
Well y'all lol just fuckin with you guys out there.
If I ever see a redneck acting like a dildo I call them out. You may ask yourslf why? Why George? You looking for trouble young man? I answer with this act as if your at diner with a person and don't try so hard to impress me. I don't believe in bullshit that own making me who I am. I do not believe in money because the future is so bright right now that doesn't matter. When you've lost so much as my family has it's just like the who cares effect. Some may say the "I don't give a fuck" switch I have the one with the curse word in it.
Some may argue and say hey that's not good! I say fuck it life is way to short to let vampires suck me dry. Turn the switch on when people act as I'd they are better when they hide under thief insecurity blankets. You bitch you! Bitch is a word used to describe the weak. Not a woman. If people call you a bitch maybe you need to change how you act in front of everyone.
I'm a big believer in a bunch of nothing with a side order of emptiness. I know you like that I know. The reason is because deep down inside you feel that way at times. I run on the strength that has given me. My actions and eveything I do has a purpose in my life and if you find yourself doing things with no purpose your lost and need a guide.
Wether you find yourself at a meeting or trying to talk to close family or friends I'll continue to write my blogs this is how I vent this is my church. I speak about whatever I feel and sometimes what I use to feel. Life is a big game you only have one player and how you choose to move is life or death.
This shit may or may not be over your head. I do like feedback and let me know what you think I should be talking about. Since the news is cooked I don't watch tv it's all bullshit. Go sit on the couch and do not get up till news at 11pm comes on see what it does to you. The media tells you how to feel, dress, fuck, etc. I say fuck them and thier mothers.
Ok on the jobsite see you guys soon. Maybe when I have some extra cash I'll start a video blog and keep this one as a side project.

Today Is just another day Im ranting on many topics keep in mind I barely slept.

Still on my Job Hunt I do however have a few sites im linked to such as Bright fuse and Career builder as well as linked in they all work well. The only true problem I have is that they all want me to sell insurance I mean come on look at me would you buy insurence from me? I wouldn't buy insurence from me, anyway it seems kind of Fucked up in the long run. I have been looking for work and nothing yet but I still have some books to read and that makes me happy.

Andrea makes me happy. She made me a few e-cards and they made me smile. I know times are hard for us now but I don't plan on staying in this down state to long I have goals and have to make it happen before I die or die trying. I'm doing everything I can to find work now, since my leads on work keep falling through I just have to keep on moving forward and keep my head high. We both share the common goal and that is to find work and stay working so we can move out of moms house. I want my own place and it will be nice with our own privacy but we all had to make sacrifices and they pay off in the long run we are not stuck here forever and she knows that or at least I hope she does. Anyway thats enough about my personal life lets move on to the good stuff I hope you enjoy my blog cause it's not always that I get to express myself this way. But it does feel wonderful.

Yesterday I felt as though my whole family wanted nothing more then to sit around and Talk down to me and make me feel like shit but today its all good. I wonder what is going through everyones head. Why does everyone insist on picking on me wtf?! What did I do now? Its just the way it is I guess. It is my fault sometimes and I am to blame but come on already enough is enough. Im just going to lay low and stay out of everyones way, and if I have an idea keep it to myself and hope for the best.
I wrote my first and only comedy set two nights ago while trying to fall asleep its all about Hill Billys and rednecks I'm sure that all of the rednecks and hillbillies will be very upset with me but
The white Trash of the world will agree on some very valid points that I made, and the whole time this shit is funny. I made myself laugh. I know its some funny shit I might post it but due to the fact people steal every clever idea ill keep it to myself and one day hope to do a comedy routine and hopefully it will be in the south so I can piss off a bunch of dumbass redneck hillbillies that I personaly can't stand. I'm the king of white Trash/ Heavy Metal/ Hardcore/ Hip Hop and can say whatever I want cause I have the freedom of speech on my side. Im not racist nor do I claim to hate anyone of a different color or religion but I can't fuckin stand a bunch of ignorant shitheads that think they are better then city folks. All because you can fix your car with a rubber hose a paper clip and half eaten taco doesn't make you a redneck it just means your fucking idiot thats cheap and doesn't want to repair a car the way most people do and thats by taking it in for service. I'm not impressed with the country folks who have the crappy attitude and the aptitude of a 3rd grader.
If you really want to know why Im so drawn to make these conclusions look at people from the south they are just annoying and all hell. Number 1 you guys can not drive I have a witness to this, I was driving from FL to Chicago and in Kentucky or Tennessee it was on of those inbreed states you hear about were people die from self inflicted gunshot wounds on hunting trips and other retarded related injuries that I was doing well over the posted speed limit, I was in a 65mph zone doing around 98 to 100mph and out of nowhere I see a handicapped fat old lady flashing her high beams and honking up a storm for me to get out of the left lane I guess I wasn't going fast enough, I also got passed by a cotten headed viagra case that was giving me the jerk off hand gesture so I gave them all the finger and (I hope they can read my lips) I told them to suck my dick. the whole time Laughing up a storm I was tired and just didn't care. the point is this is the south what happen to southern hospitality keep in mind I had FL plates on the car and was driving normal. I was praying they would end up in a pile up down the road or god would just kill them. A fat lady isn't handicapped cause she can't walk due to her obese body not being able to support her. as for the old man who gave me the hand signals he was probably late for his meeting with his fat handicapped wife/sister and his children/brothers and sister what a dildo.
Those are just some of my Travel high lites. I do hate the south that is why they lost the war and they are still butt hurt over the whole thing, nothing freaks me out more then bible thumping Christians that have only one view of the world and thats what they say is right and Jesus died for our sins and the bullshit they say and do makes it ok for them to be dildos and act like that. But if God knew these people would have been around 2000 years after him he would have put in some kind of clause. Like don't act like an asshole and stop using my book in the literal sense you stupid ass dummies. If Jesus taught these people (us) anything its be tolerant not judgmental of everyone and everything. Show so fucking respect for people and stop all the bullshit. STOP forcing your views and opinions down everyones throats and look at yourself point the fingers at yourself not me or anyone else who lives a life and has their own standards on how they live. The reason we have all this crazy end of the world shit going on and people killing each other is cause of one religion or another. Christian fundamentalist are just as bad as Muslim extremest, I guess these people have never heard the expression to much of anything is bad for you. that goes for religion too. How can man take something as peaceful religion and make it the most evil corrupt thing to believe in?