The Love and how we had it and lost it. By. George M. TSATSIS I

To say that we might have been in love is like sayin you are unsure of this. Ok Love isn't complicated because you only cause drama if your not in love. I'll leave it at that i will however have more to say shortly.

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I reflect emotion while taking time to be a great person.

Some say he is the end of all things to come. I just wanna feel the love.
Some said he wasn't shit he never gave a shit about what others think.
Treat everyone with respect and only diss them if they are slobs or low lives.
Treat people like you want to be treated and you will be rewarded for everything.
I never cared much for what other thought, I reflect all my emotions.
I reflect emotions deeper then anything you could dream of.
My soul became the bottomless pit of everything.
My suffering and pain have become and will always be the stronger because after you lose a father things changed. Things fucked me up. My emotions from that day still linger after all this time. I mean doesn't anyone know why I give them the finger in photos?
I don't give a fuck about looking cool or being hot.
Simple reasons can explain why others wanna be.
Remember the simple reasons no need to explain every little detail.
Leave something to the imagination your thoughts should be peaceful.
My name is George I feel as thought no one is equal.
this is who I am, I am a writer a dreamer and a believer.
I have and will continue to grow mentaly grow in my physical form.
I'm working hard to keep life blanced steady and chill.
Who cares how I feel sometimes it's just me.
My x was weaker then any woman I have ever had.
I slowly became depressed not knowing why I would do next.
I have to admit I didn't wanna be with her and should have walked away long before 2010 Jan 29th so I'm as much to blame as she was. What a load of bullshit she was.
I never wanna meet another girl like that. I told her everything about me I had no secrets.
She had no respect for family and she could never take a joke.
I couldn't stand some shit she did like rip her toenails off it was stupid. Never have I met a more pathetic person I was being drained of my life force. Ok fuck it I'm done with her my life has been awesome.
I met a sweet woman online for as far as I can tell she's fine. No problems. No redflags as I put it. She's really has me amazed at how she is. I just wish I could be with her now but she's in GA I'm in IL but it's not the distence that gets to me it's the being on the phone and wanting to take her out but I can't it sucks but it's ok and I deal.
I deal with the 800 something miles that seperates us. I really hate the south as you already know from one of m first blogs.
Well y'all lol just fuckin with you guys out there.
If I ever see a redneck acting like a dildo I call them out. You may ask yourslf why? Why George? You looking for trouble young man? I answer with this act as if your at diner with a person and don't try so hard to impress me. I don't believe in bullshit that own making me who I am. I do not believe in money because the future is so bright right now that doesn't matter. When you've lost so much as my family has it's just like the who cares effect. Some may say the "I don't give a fuck" switch I have the one with the curse word in it.
Some may argue and say hey that's not good! I say fuck it life is way to short to let vampires suck me dry. Turn the switch on when people act as I'd they are better when they hide under thief insecurity blankets. You bitch you! Bitch is a word used to describe the weak. Not a woman. If people call you a bitch maybe you need to change how you act in front of everyone.
I'm a big believer in a bunch of nothing with a side order of emptiness. I know you like that I know. The reason is because deep down inside you feel that way at times. I run on the strength that has given me. My actions and eveything I do has a purpose in my life and if you find yourself doing things with no purpose your lost and need a guide.
Wether you find yourself at a meeting or trying to talk to close family or friends I'll continue to write my blogs this is how I vent this is my church. I speak about whatever I feel and sometimes what I use to feel. Life is a big game you only have one player and how you choose to move is life or death.
This shit may or may not be over your head. I do like feedback and let me know what you think I should be talking about. Since the news is cooked I don't watch tv it's all bullshit. Go sit on the couch and do not get up till news at 11pm comes on see what it does to you. The media tells you how to feel, dress, fuck, etc. I say fuck them and thier mothers.
Ok on the jobsite see you guys soon. Maybe when I have some extra cash I'll start a video blog and keep this one as a side project.

Written on march 24th

Feelings I never mind them. Being true to never rewind them, like old video cassettes they fade and break. My soul can only take what's been given as far as I know I'm still livin. Pieces of me broken lost or stolen never forget what's brought u here, this is where I belong so solong tomorrow is already here I whispered thing's into her ear, while I slept away depression just to go and make myself a living lesson.
lessons learned cigarettes burned my eyes from the smoke and now the smoke's cleared, I saw myself swimming with shark's no fear hoping that the ocean would swallow my sorrows but alas it only brought back tomorrow.

Christmas is a time of love family and food if your like me then it's ok.

Got finally looked for lighter found it now I'm here. Outside enjoying my coffee and watching RAIN!!!! WTF kind of white Christmas is this it's a bunch of slush. Yeah thanks God! Today I am thankful for many things so I'm good. I did not ask for presents cause I could not buy things for anyone sorry. But if you know me then you know i would have went crazy if I did have loot.
Next subject I haven't lost the spirit o christmas I've just kind of said you need time to a true Christmas to me again. Praying for mericals and looking up at the sky might have worked in 1450 yelling at the heavens and freaking out might have worked a couple or years after Jesus was murdered. That's another thing how come cold case file still haven't looked into JC's death I mean yeah it was a while back but with today's tech they can find seamen on a needle in the haystack.
So yeah going to my sisters for food and to chill then home and to repeat my life.

Something so amazing

I'm thinking about my life, should I join the armed forces? Should I learn from the best? Maybe I was made to kill!? Who knows, these are my thoughts. Starting in a month or so I'm going to start working out. Get back into shape for the sole purpose of becoming a killing machine. Not a bad idea. I want to be black ops, now I know what some may think but I do indeed have a monster that lives deep inside. I know the world isn't going to end soon but why not be ready for the war. I'm sick and tired to the point were I would like to just get rid of the shit that lives among us, criminals, child molesters, rapeist, etc you know what I mean. Nothing bring more joy to my heart then to watch people who deserve to get there pea sized brains splattered in a way that would make picaso proud. Long hard road ahead of me. I just want to cleanse this war with the blood of terrorists. My god said kill the assholes my county said here's a gun!